It is unclear how I got here and why I am here and whose decision it was to have me here, but somehow I am commited (have been commited) to four more months (a final four months) here and we are all very hopeful it culminates in something fairly neat and prescribed.
Can that be us 4 years from now, 50 years ago?
If you are desperate for a truth to hang on to, how ‘bout that we are not one way or another because we have been one way or another, but because we keep mistaking our past for our future.
— Karen Koenig
I don’t want to express alienation. It isn’t what I feel. I’m interested in various kinds of passionate engagement. All my work says be serious, be passionate, wake up.
— Susan Sontag
Pina Bausch c. 1968
We are only ever alone, by which I mean, I am only ever alone, for what we could there be in this half empty bed?
‘I always want to know the things one shouldn’t do.’
‘So as to do them?’ asked her aunt.
‘So as to choose.’ said Isabel.
— Henry James
Dawn
The answers I didn’t have last night did not show themselves this morning.
The conviction I didn’t have last night did not surface this morning.
The hope I didn’t have last night was still not found this morning.
Things I should refrain from googling.
how to find a lost wallet in nyc
how to go to a bar alone
how to cook rice
calories in a tbsp of butter
best whiskey to use in whiskey sour
how to live
